Sunday, September 26, 2010

Creating a Life in Music

Sean McPherson is a man of many talents. A significant slice of his career is bass performance [in studio], but he is also one of the minds behind High Respects, the success of Doom Tree, and a thriving trivia night production.

On September 23rd, I had the privilege of attending class with Sean in Creating a Life in Music.  He spoke to the class about strengths, weaknesses, comfort zones, passions and insecurities related to the music industry. Sean believes himself to be a fearless stage performer with a hybrid-casual business sense, and to lack musical shorthand experience and musical literacy (Neither has stopped him so far).

In my own Sean-Induced self-assessment, I came to realize my own strengths and weaknesses.  I love to write.  It's probably the most comfortable thing for me to do.  I can pour my soul into page after page of a notebook; I can zone out ["flow"] for hours and type my fingers to the bone.  It's second nature [or perhaps first] to me.  My downfall, on the other hand, is social anxiety.  Panic throttles my calm as the focus shifts to me.  I find find myself riddled with self-conscious grief, my only option to choke it all down and summon a coherent phrase whilst suppressing the ever-present suspicion that all eyes see right through me; that all my fear, embarrassment, and unease is revealed tangibly for each individual to mull over, judge, and berate me for!

…I digress…

Sean believes I should make my strengths and weaknesses work for me.  I need to "monetize"; I should get paid more for things that I can do better.  It sets an example for the people I work with.  That's fine, I think I can work on that. I need to bring these things into my comfort zone, and make them a part of my normal life [routine].